drown

resolve. reserve.

i try and remember my dreams every night, but they roll off my tossing and turning shoulders while i wake.

i dream of california like it's the land of sunshine and short sleeves and all these sweet girls who got sick of chicago and went back to the west. i'll bus towards the sunset. i'll place my toes beside yours, and we'll smile and raise our fists in celebration of still standing upright on this damn spinning earth.

you are so silly; you are so strong. i slip slap slingshot taffy fears. we trade candy hearts for valentine's day. i wink a goodbye as i fall down the stairs on my way to the door.

you are back to never quite looking me in the eye.

drink water 'til you drown.