the excitement of new people without the time to get bored. first conversations and unexpected connections and the beauty of shared humanities. these are the kinds of people i can open up to, pour out the deepest randomly secret thoughtsdoubtsworrieshopesloves in front of them without regret.
i'm lazy and i want a fling, something fleeting and intense, brief and definite and understood.
my heart racing. curls of smoke drifting in dim light, skinny boys and girls with tousled hair leaning too close to drop secrets too loudly into the spaces between us outside in the grass in the trees with our laughter too sudden and our eyes too unsure when our arms brush unexpectedly and our skins thrill at the touch our smiles widen our hearts race.
i saw the most beautiful girl today; her simple dark haircut framed her clear bright face and big eyes and as she turned to walk away her tattooed back her easy stride caught my breath. bony shoulders and a trusting smile and my mind froze up i offered only the necessary words and niceties but if i didnt show it i promise really truly i was in awe dont put my hesitancy down to indifference; i hide desires with indifference, my insecurities with a smile.
spring carnival at UChicago, back in May:
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